I was so dead-on I would end up at Northwestern University in the Mathematical Methods in Social Science Program. That was my dream path after high school. I would attend a top-notch school and be in the Windy City.
I thought I would end as my team's number four runner for cross-country and help my team qualify for state. I ran one thousand miles the summer before the season started to put my body in better position to race well.
I set my sights on finding that one person, I could fall in love with throughout high school. Our love would be like a romantic novel and we would head off to the same college conquering it together.
Yet along the way, none of these things happened. I didn't get into Northwestern. I ran terrible in cross-country and was benched at Regionals. I thought I found "her" multiple times but I was denied each time. I became sleep-deprived and mentally confused why I didn't accomplish my goals. Did my life just become a complete failure?
In recent times, I learned however these events led to "greater" things for me. Currently, I am attending the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign where I am surrounded by a tough academic curriculum and some of my closest friends. Personally, I love it here. Classes are a lot harder than I expected and there are many brilliant minds around me. I love my course load and the classes I am taking. Many of my friends are here so I get to see them quite often rather than if I was at Northwestern, I would only get to see my friends roughly two-three times per year.
My cross-country season didn't go as I expected. I became so angry and frustrated at myself that I trained even harder than I did in previous running seasons. In the winter, I ran more miles than I did before and worked out more in the weight room. In the indoor season of track, I ran much better. I got my spark back(next blog post). We ended up qualifying for indoor track state and I gained my coach's faith and trust again when a race was on the line. When a slot needed to be filled, I was asked first to run in his spot. I ran multiple races at meets and invites because my coaches had confidence in me to run good times and come up big when it mattered. I never predicted this to happen based off my last season's performance. I really enjoyed track season and I am going to miss it dearly. My cross-country season didn't go as expected but it lead to a successful track season for me.
I am and will always be a hopeless romantic. I rather go out for dinner and catch a movie rather than go to parties and randomly hook up with strangers. In my high school years, I would localize myself to people who attended my high school or junior high. I knew my set criteria for my perfect woman and thought I found her three times. Yet, each time I was denied because to them, I wasn't who they were looking for. I was angry about this but I am glad it happened. These certain girls each became one of my best friends in the long run. They helped me through my mistakes and gave me suggestions on what to do when I find "her" eventually. These pieces of advise helped me so much and taught me several things about myself. I know in the future when I find her, I will be prepared and ready to finally meet my perfect match.
All these events lead to me, to be in a better situation or have a better understanding of something. Things didn't go the way I wanted previously but it happened for a reason. In the end, my main conclusion to whoever reads this is don't take for granted what just happened and if your life doesn't go the way expected. Just know that along the way, something better will happen to you and you will be glad it did.
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